Two and a half years ago, I faltered under the weight of anxiety and depression and couldn’t imagine a life where moving beyond fear was possible. My marriage teetered on the edge. Night terrors and flashbacks due to childhood trauma and sexual abuse plagued my nights and crept into my days. I mothered my children out of unseen fears. At the end of myself, I contemplated removing myself from this world. I was falling apart in every area of my … Continue reading →
“Not a root canal! Isn’t there anything else you can do?” From the moment my dentist shook his head, I panicked. I feared the unknown. Countless voices peppered my brain as I recalled the “doom and gloom” root canal stories I’d heard. “It’s the worse pain I’ve ever had! Next time I’ll have the tooth pulled.” “I hope I don’t have to have a root canal.” “My root canal lasted for three hours.” No wonder I dreaded it. As soon … Continue reading →
Mashed Potatoes are not my cooking specialty. My potatoes are always lumpy. I even have a stand mixer and have allowed potatoes to beat and beat and beat, and they are still lumpy. Therefore, I resorted to instant potatoes. One day, I was preparing those instant potatoes in the microwave. I carefully took the bowl of boiling water, salt, and butter and set it on the counter. I then added the milk, and when I began pouring the milk into … Continue reading →
Habakkuk 2: 2-3 The Message Version: And then God answered: “Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what’s coming. It aches for the coming-it can hardly wait! And it doesn’t lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It’s on its way. It will come right on time.” Sitting nudged between my twin bed and dresser, I determined … Continue reading →
God moves us at times by nudges to our subconscious. He did that to me today. I went to the local burger place for some lunch. While I was eating, I kept hearing, “When you finish your lunch, go to — (a clothing store).” I kept hearing this inner nudge, so I acted on it. Near the door was a homeless man. I got hung up on the mirrors between my car and the one I parked next to. A man named Mike … Continue reading →
I’ve been thinking a lot about the word fear. It’s an interesting word with multiple meanings. Profound reverence The noun definitions for fear describe human emotions like danger or anxiety. One definition describes a different emotion: an intense respect toward God. Not respect in an undefined deity, or the concept of some cosmic force. Not even in a human leader. Profound Reverence It refers to a “profound reverence, especially toward God.” Profound Reverance In fact, this definition of fear even … Continue reading →
Family Camp, an idyllic location in the middle of the piney woods of East Texas where families unplug from the world and spend a week with the Lord and each other. We made plans almost a year ago to come to Family Camp. We sat on the waiting list until a few months ago, but now we are here! My family of four bursts at the seams with excitement looking at all the activities in store for us. The view … Continue reading →